So i dont have a lot of friends on here at all.. which is okay cuz i have mostely just looked at peoples entries and sometiems posted too.
But i've been away from here for over 6 months now.. i tried to recover and instead i ended up binging a lot so i gained everything back.. then i got very ill and because i literally couldnt eat anything else than oatmeal porridge, i lost 11-13 kg. in about 4 weeks! Now i've gained 7 kg. back and i really wanna have control again! I've had some salad, a little fruit, and im mostly glad that im getting used to not eat so much anymore.. my plan is to eat less and less by time because "cold turky" is just too hard and i'll really end up binging then,.. a lot!
this is for hope, life and control! and a dream of the perfect body that i will get in the end!